Monday, October 17, 2005

Ghost of blogs past

From akienm:
1. Delve into your blog archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.

From Grief and not eating "Intellectually I know that he's actually getting all the nutrition he needs via tube and he has large reserves of fat." He's still getting most of his nutrition via tube and most of his fat reserves are gone. Yet he continues to grow. He gets stronger every day.

But to be honest, I still struggle with his eating issues. It doesn't loom as large as it did in May. I no longer fear that he wants to die. "But I still mourn the fact that he no longer breastfeeds." That's still true. But gradually my mourning became less constant. Like any type of loss, I became reminded less often.

And right now he's forcibly telling me that he's fiercely attached to me as he demands that I hold him while he goes to sleep. Gimpy as I am, I oblige. Though no standing and rocking today.

2 comments:

Plantgirl said...

I'm sorry you hurt your ankle!

Speaking of issues with babies and feeding, I thought I'd attempt to connect you to smileycynic (her lj name), a friend of a friend of mine who just had a premie son. She and her husband also post about it in babybabble.

I'm guessing she could use some encouragement and support from someone who's also experienced having a kid hooked up to 40 million tubes and things, and having to have surgery, etc. I know your life is busy, but if you get a chance, maybe you could stop by her journal and say hi?

Hope your foot feels better soon.

Thida said...

Thanks Plantgirl! I left her a comment.